hauyee

Hmmmm

2012-01-08T18:10:00.001+08:00

What will you do when you saw your ex with his new girlfriend at a friend's birthday party?

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last day of the year;

2011-12-31T15:08:00.004+08:00

This year passes way to fast already. Still remember the last new year i was celebrating with someone special. Ahwells. Im honest to say that 2011 is being such a bitch to me ): Really, i swear. Emotionally-drained, hurts, heartpains. Im still glad to say, i survived. IM A SURVIVOR!

The starting of the year during Jan'11,
Ended off a relationship with L, whom ive spent 400Days together with. Hmmmm. I cant really remember how we ended up that way. But i know we both agreed to it so thats it. & I wont forget how fucking bad i cried with all my makeup ruined at Orchard Central. HAHA. He is currently with someone else, very happy i guessed. At least, he is happy with someone he loved? :)

After not long i met H.
We went into a "Flirtationship-Playing-and-like-but-dont-wanna-get-together-kind" of relationship. Lasted for 4months. All i can say is that i really treated him damn bad but he is the kind where he will alwasy give in to me and all. Guess he really is one of the few who can tahan me for so long.. He is a nice guy. Still remembered how he will still drop me Goodmorning texts and Goodnight texts even though im asleep. :) How sweet is that right. But i know we wont last or stay likethis forever. So he left, and we ended. Still wont forget how stupid i am to actually salvage it? HAHA Crap. Damn stupid and joke of me. But he is also currently happily with someone too. And im glad for him :)

In order for me to feel less miserable and thinking too much why god wanna played such game on me, i worked as KitKat Girl for various roadshows. And i met I. Sorry, but i left without saying a word. Cos' im afraid. I told myself i will not fall for anyone already. And the process is damn hurting and i dont wanna get hurt and all.

My life became kinda happening when i met a group of SP Bikers. Somehow my friend brought me in during an outing and this is how my exciting life happens. We meetup, riding roudings and all. And theres many inside stories here and there. Hmmmmm, K i shall stfu here.

Then, Hauyee finally turned 21 during October.

And so afterwhich, I met Z.
Z is one of the Biker :) We know each other since the outing. I still remember the shy-look he gave me when my friend intro us. HAHA JOKE. Somehow we became close and we got together. But we didnt last, We both walked away.. I will still missed the times when we are out together. The way he held my hands, the way he looked at me, the way he made me feel secured. The first date we went, the first movie we watched together, the first we walked under the stars. I cant seemed to forget a single bit. If only we both arent that stubborn, things might be different now. I wanted him to be happy. Someone who will treat him right. The saddest thing is, im not the one. Ohwells, sigh. How i wished i am the one, but i guessed not le bahh.. But i do really want him to be happy, find someone who is better than me :)

I wonder what i did was it right at times. I thought it was an impulsive act but i realised its not. Why i still made the choice even though i know it will ended likethis? Im just digging my own grave, am i? OHWELLS. Dont hurt or let me burned again please, GYM? D: Just let me love the right one, no more wrong ones can? Dont let me fall again okkae? :)

&&, so damn fucking suey till i lost my Iphone. Which had not even been with me for 1month. So damn fucking mad sad please. Im still cursing that motherfucker every single night. BO BIAN, WAY TO MAD. Ah fuck. My fault for being careless too. HAIXZC.

This kinda sumed up my pathetic life in 2011. And im sure 2012 gonna be a better year for me! BETTER BE PLEASE :) IM GONNA BE A SURVIVOR TOO!!!!

In another life?

2011-12-11T22:53:00.001+08:00

这段爱情是不是一开始就是错误?

This is not what we wanted but we have to make decision to it. How did we ended up here this way? Probably we both are really strong-header thats why we ain't happy together. Maybe We fall in love at the wrong timing. Maybe we are not meant for each other? Maybe it's just us. Do you think we have a chance? Probably someday, sometime..

In another life, I'd be your girl.

I miss you. I really miss you, Z.

Oh what happened to us?

2011-12-02T18:04:00.001+08:00

Fights. And more fights.
Quarrels. And more quarrels.

Like a never ending.

): ):

ahwells.

2011-11-08T18:59:00.002+08:00

There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who created it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus soley on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.

Im Sho glad to have you, Z. :)

the girl with the golden key ;3

2011-10-28T21:13:00.006+08:00

Happy 21st to Myself! ;D

Had my celebration last week before school starts! Whoa. It was a successful one (Y)Thank you so much to those who attended ;3 You know i love you all so much~ Appreciate all of your presence on that day and the lovely pressies! Sho shweeeet ♥

Special thanks to all my Sisters for helping soooooo much in this Birthday party!!! Especially Lin. Despite of your hectic work yet you still make time and effort to make a memorable party for me! You girls know it well that why i actually doesnt want to hold any party de... Ohwells. But i did enjoyed it that day ;3 And the video, really didnt expect that! Awwwwwwww. And thanks to those who helped and contributed in the video all. XIEXIE NI MEN ♥ -SHO TOUCHED-

Mini surprise by my HH and NB!!! ♥♥

This is how i spend my Deepavali eve with them. Singing and tonning at Airport OVERNIGHT! Reached home at 11plus in the morning! All our nonsense thingy and the HTHTs is sho loved ♥ Awesome outing with those 2 maddies! Love you both sho sho much!!!!!! AND I CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT OUTING!!!!!! -SEXCITED-

And ohwells. School had officially started!! Repeated module ;/ I think through out my 3years poly life, i always got to retake module uhhh. Tsktsk. This is the result of slacking too much!!! HAHAHA, Like igaf? Nooo. I just wanna graduate smoothly can already! ;3

And OHHHH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DUMMMY!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

I dont wanna messed this things up;

2011-10-14T17:35:00.005+08:00

Im so fucking fucking sad D: D: D: I guess sad is not the exact word to use for this case? But i just cant stop blaming myself for the mess ive done D: And i know i will nehhver be able to make things alright again i guess? I hate it larhhhh D: Why am i so so so so careless?

As you all might think that being a receptionist can be a simple job done, just answering some calls, transfering calls, signed for package when sentover etc. Yahhh, thats exactly what i felt too. Its so damn relax until i can tell my mum im just and "Hua Ping" sitting down there.

Its my biggiest mistakes i ever made, i swear. How could i still sit down there happily watching my show while the clients from some big company waiting for one of the staff for meeting? How could i still have the time to head down the pantry for Tea break? How could i not take the iniative to call for SOS when the clients waited for 45mins and they decided to leave? How could i not blame myself for making such mistakes? How could i? D: D: D:

I did contact the person incharge of the meeting. But i coulnt get through him. I did called staffs to help me, but none pickup. And its my fault for not taking the initiative to contact the whole team for help. But how am i susppose to know? Haixz. Worst thing still, i didnt report to him regarding the matter. He got so pissed and i think i almost got him into trouble. Ohhh, FML.

Probably i feel so relax workig there and just felt like home until i didnt take things seriously? The matter was brought up to the HR and got no choice but have to...... Haixz, ohwells.

And i guess there wouldnt be any chances for me to go back again.. How would the rest of the staffs thinks of me? Irresponsible or noob at handling things? I guess i will be the new gossip headline for those typical OL already uhhh. Ohwells. HAIXZ D: I will learn from my mistakes, and will not make it the second time ):

Shall spam alot of chocolates later after making my chocolate pudding!

&, Thanks for being there for me, FBB. YOU STUPID ASS KEEP MAKING ME LAUGH (L)

500 days of summer;

2011-10-08T23:20:00.010+08:00

It had been quite some time after my last update yo. And now im back to updating mannn. Im so fucking busy till i dont have enough sleeeeep! Tsktsk. But currently, im still able to relax alittle bit mannnn!! Hehehe. And so lets seee. So september had ended, here comes october!!! So, 2 more weeks to my 21st party~ Pretty sexicited mannnnnn~~!!! Still thinking of my hair style all. Whoaaa, machiam is more of like my wedding horrr? HAHAHAHA :p

Ohwell, let me update abitbit of my busy life~

So, september.
Ended my kitkat roadshow, like finally! But so sad, i cant see my Eddie-哥 for quite some time mannnn! ): And the last roadshow was damn fuckedup till the person in charge asked me packed and leave. RAR. Tsktsk.

Afterwhich, I worked for Lion Global as Receptionist (and currently im still helping them to cover receptionist)!! I love working there mannnn!!!! ;3 ;3 ;3 SO FUNNNNNN, AND RELAX TOO. Can get to see my eyecandy, the people there were nice toooooo! Especially my angmoh boss! ;3 HEHEHEHE. So yalorhhh! I think i will miss the place once i start school. :/

I was helping for an event too, Human Capital Submit'2011 (HCS) @ Resort World Sentosa! ;D It came out great though its so fucking tiring to reach RWS at 7am and and ended at 7pm. WHOA. Working together with Dummy!! ;3 And it was great to know and work with funn people! ;D Anyways, our jobscope is to ursher people and dealing with Mic Handling. The coolest thing ever is that, theres 7 of us (All girls), and we all have to put on our walkie talkie!!!! And we all look like some bodyguards!!!!! (Y) Damn funnnn mannnn~ HAHAHAHAHAHA.

The Girls and Dom(Incharge)
The Girls and QF!! ;3
;D

Felt so damn good to have a short getaway with my family to Melacca on the 1st and 2nd Oct, just after i end my event! ;3 Heheh. It was great!!! But then i still feel the time spent there is too shot already!!!! Cant shop much! D: But it was definitley a good one!! Virgin try of riding on a Trishaw!!!!!!!!!!!! SO FUNN MANNNNN~ HEHEHEHHE, Really is sucha enjoyment siol.

Me and Sissy.
Dad and Mum!

The Loong's Family! ♥♥

What a short getaway for us! Guess i did enjoy myself during the trip though its really really a short period of time! Dad said we are gonna go again, and stay a longer period the next time! ;D

So, back to Lion Global for Receptionist. :)

And also, did worked @ RBS Mailroom for 2 days toooo! With Elith! ;D And with some crazy guys. Make us laugh like mad! But i got to say working there is really fun and relaxing. At least dont have the "superior" feeeel! HEHEH. I like there, Cos' its just a small room just for the mails to come in and sent out. So, it feels like everybody there is friendly and fun i would say! And we Had a good laugh for the past 2 days over this stupid song that Firdaus show us!!! And it went like, "OHHH You touch my Tralala, Hmmmmm My Dingding dong." HAHAHAHAHHAHA SERIOUSLY, LAUGH LIKE FUCK MANNNNN. HAHAHHA. And we had cam-whoring session too!!!! ;D

ELITH!! :3
;D

Meeting up with CONNIE on that day toooo~~ ;3 ;3 ;3
Headed to Bugis and had our dinner at this famous duck rice stall. And we had kuey chap for our hungry stomach. So yummilicious! Ngomxz. HEHE. Marble slab icecream as dessert afterthat!! ;p HEHE. Sat down, eateat chatchat gossip and cam-whore all is so loved! ;3 ;3 Especilly the moment we are watching the video of the tralala and we fucking laugh till we beng, seriously. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA BTH.

Tralala and Dingdingdong ♥♥

holidays;

2011-09-20T23:30:00.007+08:00

MPSIP had finally ended last week!!! And here come my well deserved hoildays until October!!! ;3 ;3 Whoaaaa. I guess im gonna work for some money to pay for my own expenses. And so anyways, Went for buffet with my class people on the last day of MPSIP! ;D Travel all the way to Punggol Marina Country Club to have our Shabu Shabu!

So nice to have people peeling prawns for me to eat. Hehehe. :3
Ex-Husbandy~ (L)
(L)(L)

Cant wait for Steamboat with the class!! :3 :3

Sometimes it last in love and sometimes it hurts instead.

and how you held me in your arms that september night;

2011-09-05T20:38:00.003+08:00

BYE AUGUST, HELLO SEPTEMBER!!! :3

Ohwells. Im so glad to say that at least September is being so kind to me. Awwwww. Seems like October is getting nearer to me. Which means to say, IM TURNING 21 SOOON!!!!! Oh god. Anyways a quick update for my 21st. I finally booked my chalet at ECP there, 2days 1 night. Heh. More info to be updated again! Stay tune, too lazy for now. HAHAH.

Felt so drained these days, from school and work. Totally drained my energy mannn ): Though 2more weeks to end MPSIP!!! Ive been waiting for this day to come. Come quick, please. As for work? I am schduled to farfar places!! Like for instant, Woodlands, Yishun etc. And yesterday, im working @ Serangoon North. I thought its just somewhere in Serangoon, but turned up i landed somewhere at Yio Chu Kang. Wow wow wow. Ohwells. The bus driver uncle being nice and kind, help me open the door when its my stop cos' i ask him where to stop all. BUT THEN. He mistooken me as a Beer-Girl(!!!!) working at Kopitiam(!!!) SERIOUSLY?! HAHAHAHA. JOKE.

Sometimes i wonder why things will happened in such a way. Isit god trying to tell me something? It seems like a repeated cycle, and im sick and tired of it. I dont understand why, misunderstood or what? How come i just feel uneasy over it. Probably knowing you guys was a mistake? Or isist, you guys are just all the same? Why likethat?? At times, i just feel annoyed, it was supposed to be me. But now? Feel like a replacement. Without me, you think you..... Aiyahhh, whatever, fuck it mannn.

Self-reminder: If you leave without a reason, dont come back with an excuse.

mummy's birthday;

2011-08-28T22:14:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!! ♥

Mummy is another year older, which means im a year older (sooon). Me and sissy bought mum a handphone for her birthday this year ;3 And glad that she loves it! HEHE!! :3

running around leaving scars;

2011-08-21T21:28:00.009+08:00

What a busy weeeeek i had!! :3 I feeel like having not enough rest ): Ahhhhh, shall have my beauty sleeeep after im done blogging. Hehe. Soooooo, had photoshooting on friday (Y) For some portfolio i guess? Pretty fun though! HAHAHA. You know im a Zilian-kuang! ;P Heheh.

Catchup with M on friday!! Like a finally after so longgggggg. Gossips and all, so interestinggggg (L) This stupid fat dumb nehhver failed to make me laugh, always!! :3

However, had work on saturday at TPY with Auntie SherRen!!! :3 And amazingly i was early for work. *Applause* And, Sales was great toooo (Y)(Y) Had fun working with this suntie. Dont know when will we be working together again.. Probably the next roadshow in september? :3 HEHEHE. Camwhored alot with this mad auntieee!! HAHAHAH. Like fun onlyyyy~ OHYAHHHHHHH!!! And this BOYBOY SAID, "XIEXIE AUNTIE" SO LOUDLY WHEN I GAVE HIME EAT KITKAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ): ): His mummy was like a stunned and look at me and she said, "IS JIEJIE!!!" HAHAHAHAHHAHA. Damn hilarious.

Auntie Joey.
Auntie SherRen.
Freeee Coffeeeee!!

Aunties FTW!!! ♥

Met the girls after my work for dinner at Clark Quay @ Saizeriya! :3 Donne and Lin fetch me from TPY and vrooooom-ed down. Woohooooo (Y) Celebrated Jia's 20th Birthday! :3

Birthday Girl!!! ♥
♥♥♥

As usual, camwhored alot ;3 ;3 Feeeel like a kid to take out my shoes and played at the water fountain (?) thereeeeee! Wooots. HEHEHHE. Clark Quay was a place filled with so much memories.. Ahwells. Things might changed, but i know deep inside my heart it remains as it is. HTHT with the girls. Catching up with all the things we've missed all these time.

I can be tough, I can be strong.
But with you, its not likethat at all.

you gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul;

2011-08-17T22:23:00.004+08:00

Im trying to get back to regular blogging :3 Hehehe. Ahwells.

So today had excursion. HAHAHA. First time ever heard that poly had excursion? Went for some nonsense fieldtrip @ Fushion World. And it turned out to be so fucking awesomeeeeee, like really awesomeeeeee!!! Everything was like so, amazing. Thats what technology nowadays can do.

Im gonna be a phycotic bitch to ignore your calls and messages, so dont call me or text me again.

UPDATES!!!;

2011-08-15T23:25:00.006+08:00

"Im still alive but barely breathing~"

WOW WOW WOW.
Finally i decided to update my dear bloggie here. It had been quite some time since my last post, which was like june/july. Time flies ehhh. Its August right now already lehhh. And horrr (put-aside note), its the 7th month le ehhhh. *Scared* Someone said that today (16th) is the fiercest day of the month :/ I promise i will roll to my bed after i blogged finished! So much of happenings things going on during these period of time where i kinda "MIA".

And to start of with. August wasnt being nice to me. Somehow i felt that Year2011 was a baddddd year for me ): ): No like no like. But what to do? Still have to live and moveon, and ofcourse i did :3

Shall not say much about my story. Cos' i know people come and go. Thats the thing i cant change about. And im getting sick and tired of people coming in my life, they make me feel that they cared and making me feel how special and important i am to them, and then they just left without saying a word. Okkaes, i admit i was really hard to handle and my attitude fucking sucky. I know my flaws. But ohwells. Nothing gonna change things back again to how we used to be i guess. Those memories gonna be somewhere deep in my heart. Regrets and mistakes are memories made. But well. That is something i must learn, which is letting go.

"So this is the end of you and me. We had a good run, and im setting you free."

So whats next? Lets seee uhhh. Ohhhh right now Im working for a 2months KitKat Roadshow all over Singapore. Sounds pretty coool horrr? Quite tired cos sometimes have to travel to really farrrrrrr places. Still, Its funn though! :3 Got free Kitkat to eat ehhhh!!! Hehehe. So far i work for 3 shows alreadyyyyyyy :3 Heh Heh. AND I FEEL LIKE A SO AUNTIE-ISH TO TAKE BACK SO MUCH KITKAT THINGS!!!

Dummies!(L) Auntie! :3
Qingaide!! (L)
Sher Ren!! :3

We both look like a happy-and-satisfied aunties siol. HAHAHAHHA :3 And this girl keep asking me to take more pillows home! Tsktsk. Damn auntieeeeee!! (Y)

Shall off to bed now. Its 1218am. Gonna be up at 730am!
GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!! :3 :3

Bye june, Hello july;

2011-07-04T21:34:00.004+08:00

P-school Gathering :3
10 Years ago where we all are still kids.
10 Years later, We finally met.

holidays?

2011-06-22T17:10:00.002+08:00

Seems like im neglecting my bloggie pretty often now :/ Toooo lazy already. Im sosososo glad that at least i have a 2weeks break after 7weeks of MPSIP since school starts. Whoooooa. Though 2weeks break seeems never enough for me, i mean everyone. But still, am already lucky enough.

Since my sissy keeeep saying im a "Ji shen cong", i got myself a job last week. And it only lasted for 4days larhhhh. Still, better than nothing right? Heh heh heh. At least this time round i got more work to do, way better than the prevoius time i took over Receptionist posistion. Heheh. Someday i want to try being a PA of a CEO or Manager or whatever. HAHAHAHA.

Currently, back to jobless again. HEHEHE. Cos' gonna start school next week already, so i might as well enjoy the rest of my weeeek. Heh. Cant wait for this coming saturday for my P-school reunion!!! :D It has beeen a decade since we last see each other. SO EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDD TO SEEEE THEM AGAIN OHMYGODDDDD CANT WAITTTTTT!!!!!!

hello june;

2011-06-05T17:39:00.002+08:00

Its been a longlong while since my last update. Wahhhh. Time flies again, and its JUNE already! :3 Half of 2011 had passed. I guess we should treasure the next 6 months more, live life to the fullest, make the right choice that you wont regret, before 2011 ends in a blink of our eyes.

Ohwells. 6 weeks of MPSIP in school had passed. I think still got 15 more weeks to go! Seems long, but i guess it will passed very fast de. Within this 6weeks of my MPSIP, i late 3times, kena 2 warning letters. Fml. Whatever larhhhh. I dont care.

I got so much to say but i currenly having some mind block. Haiyohhhs.

WO.HEN.FAN.

lame shitxz;

2011-05-11T21:57:00.003+08:00

Ohwells. Its the 3rd weeek of MP/SIP already. Life's beeen pretty good and relax still. Eating and Watching movies in class is like (Y) Heheheh. But gonna start work soooon le larhhhh. Heh.

So today was like, horror movie marathon. Watch malay and indo horrror!! Fucking horror i swear. Ohmygoddz. Screamed like dont know what siol. My heart cant take it mannnn. HAHAHAHHA.

And ohwells. These days like so many lame shitxz happening siahhh. Seriously, get a fucking life larhhh okkkae. Stop being so childish for god's sake. How old already siahhh still want play all these with me? Fucking bitch. Get a fucking life *insert middle finger* Stop messing with me. So scared your baby boyfriend leave you uhh? For fuck i want to touch your boy. Fuck off. Got balls post those comments again. CurryNachosChaoCheesepie.

And you. You ruined everything, including our friendship. Its kinda sad. Cos' we used to be so close but now things gonna change. Everything is gone. Im not gonna talk to you anymore. Please hor, guan hao your baobei girlf.

year 3.1

2011-04-28T21:32:00.002+08:00

First week of MPSIP is major boredom, im serious. Have to wakeup fucking early everyday. Diedie have to clockin between 830-9am, and clockout at 530pm. Do nothing every single day. And so annooying, have to wear jeans and cover shoes EVERYDAY. Damn sianxz. But i vehhh guailan, i wore shorts EVERYDAY (Y) And i keep tio gan by teachers, so im gonna get jeans soooon. Ohwells. Cos' im not a vehhhh jeans-person. I dont like to well anything thats below my kneeeee. Vehhhh Hot, me dont like.

This is my daily routine life:

-Wakeup at 730.
-Clockin by 9am.
*Eat, sleeeep, watch movies, shit, pee, stone*
-Clockout zunzun at 530pm (Y)

21 more weeeeks of life like this.

week0;

2011-04-18T17:21:00.008+08:00

[Delayed by a weeeek]

I gave Week0 a missed this year. Feels kinda sad that this year i wont be fighting with my fellow Mentors to fight the war this year ): Awwwwww. I still remember last year i said i will join this year's one, but i failed to. Arghhhhhhh. The first time how i handle my freshies. Miss the times Crapping with them, Playing with them, taking care of them, High with them etc etc. Super misssssss. But i know, Engine will win the war this time!!!!!! :3 GOGOGO.

And, recently. Ive been tumblring non stop :D HEHEHEH. Like, so obessessed into it siol. HAHAHAHA. Ofcourse not neglecting my blogger too (: Can go visit at http://dummyqueen.tumblr.com/

:D

Sissy and i went swimming yesterday :3 Ermmmm. I think im more of like soaking and sun tanning there bahhh. Hehehe (Y) Hothot de sun, and i became abitbit darker. But still, im still like as fair as paper. HAHAHA. was like cam whoring last night. Our retarded dumb face :D

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA. :3

wasted hoildays;

2011-04-12T14:06:00.006+08:00

IM FINALLY BACK TO BLOGGING LE!! HEHE.
Gonna update abit here and there. Sooooo, lets see uhh.

#1. Im wasting my 2 months hoildays either going out or rotting at home.
#2. Been Jobbless for like dont know how long.
#3. Failed one supp, pass one supp. SOOOOOO, REPEATING MODULE IN YEAR 3.2
#4. Hiphop classes was fantastic! (Y) Especially with Qingaide :3
#5. I think i had been eating alot alot, and gets hungry easily :/

Anyways, Today is Sissy's 18th Birthday!!! ♥♥

This is specially for you, dumb sissy! Heheh. You are now like, finally legal already :3 Wooohooooo! Can go party legally without lying or whatsoever! We shall go next weeeeeek! (Y) And dont worrrrry, i will ask ____ & _____ to go and protect you. Let you recall recall back the other day how 花痴 you are :P HAHAHAHA. Just to let you know that i love you for this 18 years and still going on *SHY* HAHAHAH. Those times that you saw me fall, saw me cry, saw me laugh, saw me 花痴-ing and all and all. Thanks for being there for me, hearing all my nonsense and me complianing over this 死男人 and that 死男人 ;P HAHAHAHAHHA. I know now that you might be facing and handling quite alot of things, commitments and all. Sometimes i dont ask you if you are alright all cos' i know you will tell me when you feel like sharing or ranting. Your sissy me has a good pair of listening ears :D And lastly, you might not be the best dancer, best sister or even best daughter. BUT, You are who you are that makes you the best!! ♥ So dont bother how others look at you, but its how you look at yourself. All the best sissy and I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU ♥♥♥♥♥

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Last weekend was rather well spent? :3 I finally meetup with Assssssssss after so damn fucking longggg can! And he treated me for dinner at Kungfu Paradise(?) HAHAHAH :D Had a great catchup tooooo, i like i like :D Gonna meeet with him to play pool sooon!! So saturday wad, i went for Ling'er 21st birthday party at Coasta sands :> Met Jiasheng at Promenade and do some shopping for Ling'er presant. We ended up at Suntec Convention Room 306 to get her a Coach :3 :3 Afterthat met Kwang'er at Cityhall and train down together to Pasir ris to meeet Gab and Shi. And damn suey maximum, downpour at Pasir ris when we reach ):

Birthday Girl, Ling'er ♥
Shi ♥
CK :D
Gabriel :D
Jiasheng :D

ZI LIAN QUEEEENS! (Y)

Hmmmmm. Later gonna have Hiphop class (Y)(Y) I always keeep laughing non stop when Qingaide keep saying the song to her is like, "Hum jing peng, Hum jing peng. My chick wanna eat some hum jing peng" Wapiang, laugh like hell. HAHAHAHAHAH.

Till then, shall stop here :)

恶作剧;

2011-04-06T15:27:00.005+08:00

我想我会开始想念你,
可是我剛剛才遇见了你,
我怀疑這奇遇只是個恶作剧.

de estrella'11

2011-03-29T11:31:00.006+08:00

D&D at Grand Corpthorne with Huimin'er (L) last friday :) Finally have the time and mood to update my bloggie (: HEH. Shall sum up my pretty happening weekends!! Had a great weekends (Y) Feel like a tired too. Like a not beauty sleeeeeep! :P VANESSA! :) HUIYA! :) DAD AND DAUGHTER! :) GUOHAO! :) :) QING AI DE!! (L). After D&D then we went Phuture. Its the whole TP-ians is there o.o HAHAHA. Happening much uhhs. Heh. So yalorhhhh. Anyways. Dont feel like updating already. Dont know whats fucking wrong with blogger. Im so maddddd please! TSKKKK. Having my first Hiphop classs with Qingaide later!! EXCITED LEHHHHHS!! Check it out yo! \m/

secrets for sale?

2011-03-18T14:11:00.004+08:00

Yeah he's a lyrical miracle baby,
you know im hot i get it poppin so that say.
Yeah he's a lyrical miracle baby,
and now you know just how i flow and it goes. -Stuck in my head.

Randomly seeing through my sexy photos taken for CNY, and found this. Kinda funny to me. Where's Sissy's head?! HAHAHAHAHA.

Anyways. Too lazy to update :/ Result was out yesterday. And i got 2 supp papers!! Tmd. What to do? Study lorhh. Haixz ): Seriously, am lazy to study again lehhhh. Tsktsk.

And it is exactly one more week to D&D!!!!!!!! :D Pretty excited muchhh about it!! Heheheheh. BUT, i got a bad feeling that my supp paper will be held on that day too :/ Ahhhhhhhh, going back school for lessons next week. So yalorhhh ): In order not to have Year 4.1, i shall work harder for the damn papers!! Dummy will be helping me in NETINFRA :> But who can teach me MCT??? ): ): SIGHHHHHHHHH.

And 10 more days, i will be like
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! I hope i wont break my fragile bones :P

where are you?

2011-03-10T21:37:00.003+08:00

Fake smile, where are you?
Fake you, where are you?

I kinda need you both now..

hello march?

2011-03-03T20:48:00.003+08:00

Been missing out alot these days. Too busy already. But currently i have plenty of time for now. HEHE. Because EXAMS ARE OVER! :D But wait, its march already. And this month will be sososo damn fucking eventful for me. Cant wait! *Winks.

So todayy i decided to stay at home and have a good rest. Not been sleeping well for the past few days due to exams.. Talking about exams, ohwell. Hopefully can pass all at once, no need kena supp papper. *Guan yin ma Bo bi bo bi me* So yesterday after exam was meeting up with my dummies (L). And i realised the last time we met up was like, last september until now. I remembered damn clearly because i went to.....

Waitwait, i found this picture
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HAHAHAHHAHA. SOooooooooo long time ago larhh!!

Back to topic. Headed to Tiong Baru and wait for Dummy Jo. Had a filling meal at Eighteen Chef (Y) The girls always nehhver fail to make me laugh like mad at their dummy-ness :> We all catchup alot alot alot and cam-whore alot, heh. Stayed there for about 3 hours until one of the waiter find excuses to shoooooo us away :/ HAHAHA. Afterwhich, we watched No Strings Attached. Finally get to watch it. Heh. I keep laughing at those sexual scene. HAHAH. Damn funny lehhhs.

It was a really nice meetup :> Meetup again, my dear dummies ♥

Okkaes. Why i said this month will be like, so eventful for me is because theres alot of thing im gonna do :> Its a chance for me to do things which i had never before. Ofcourse im gonna work, play, eat, sleep. Loads of partayyyyyy waiting for me ^^ Heh heh heh heh. Im going to be a workaholic too. Monday to friday will be stuck in the office, and probably im getting another one at MBS? Its only for weekends. Im still considering though.. And i will be going for TP'S D&D with my Qing ai de this coming 25th! :D IT.WILL.BE.A.BOOMXZ. HEHEHEHEHHE. Andandand, im signing up Hiphop classes with Qing ai de at Oschool!!!! :DD Ohmygod. CANT WAIT!! :> And everybody is laughing at me. "You sure anot?!?!?!?! HAHAHAHAHAHA". "You dance one mehhh?!?!?!?! Hahahahaha". etc etc. ): SO BAD HOR, HUMPH. 想当年, Laoniang dance and sing one hor. HAHAHAHAHA. I hope i wont break my bones :P

So, this month gonna be good to me :> Im pretty excited for every single thing.

我爱台妹;

2011-02-15T14:04:00.007+08:00

Recent updates.
I shop and buy and eat and shop buy eat.
Went out with Sissy last weekend ♥

On the way to food hunt :>
Like sister, like sister. Zi-lian Queens.

TRYING to be artistic and turn out not a too bad shot. HEH.
TOTALLY TAK-GLAM MAX!!! I said "SHITXZ" and she snapped it.

Food hunt and we hunt till hereeeeeeeeeee.
Feel so hong kong-ish :>
However the food was kinda disappointing lehhh except the Bo luo bao is niceeee :>

Full o-lay-dy.
Trying to act one seducing but FAIL. HAHAH.
Sissy look like some chicken rejecting service. HAHAHAHHAHA :P

MAJOR LOVE ♥♥♥

self-reflection.

2011-02-14T19:46:00.003+08:00

Hi Valentine's Day (Single Awareness Day), here i come! :D

Zheng Ping Hui asked me to enjoy the freedom while i still have it (: And Damon asked me to hug someone! ^^ Awwwwwww. But ofcourse, Happy Valentine's Day EVERYONE :>

Know what i miss most?
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Really.miss.the.good.old.school.times.together.

I randomly saw it in my thumbdrive. And i just got so much uncountable thoughts.. Friends since Secondary 1 till ~~now~~ (I wont say our friendship last till now or whatsoever, cos' in between this one year theres alot of things changes..) probably when im in poly year 1? A 7-8 years of friendship.. I know things would change as our life goes on. We drifted apart, didnt meetup, not as close as before. I am totally aware of it, i know.. Sometimes i was wondering was it me who didnt put in enough effort to keep this friendship or what. But i feel that friendship aint something about putting in effort, okkaes to a certain extent i would believe that effort is needed. Whats more important is that friends being there for one another, supporting each other, just like bra.

Take for example, Twinny and i. We know each other since 2007 when we work at Global Sources. Our friendship was built up from there. Though after that i repeat Secondary 5 again and i stop working. And through all along, even till now we seldom contact each other, we dont even meet up for months or even a year. But whenever we meetup, we still can chit chat non-stop and updating each other things that we've missed out. Fun and laughters, the feelingg is really good. 3 years plus of friendship and now still going strong :>

I also had a 13 years of friendship/sistership. Though we only see each other once in a few months or even lesser. Cos' now everyone is REALLY BUSY in their life. Some already entered society, some are still studying. Things changed but Nevertheless, the sistership is still going on.

Theres alot of friendships i treasure and cherish but i didnt list all out. But they know who they are. People like my Qing ai de, Porushine, Dummies, Brothers, Uncle Gan and Sister Ong etc.. Ofcourse. There are also bitches who came in and out of my life. This are the people who i dont give a fuck damn care. No wonder theres a saying say that, Only important people will left footprint in the heart :> Bitches? Noooooo please.

If i could really use a wish right now, i will want to go back to the good old secondary school times :>

Okkaes, thats my thoughts. Probably the problem lies in me for not putting enough time and effort i guess.. Sigh. Ohwells. But im really happy for the text i received this afternoon. Heart-warming muchhhhhhh. Thanks for saying that, Love :>

walk away;

2011-02-11T17:18:00.005+08:00

有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
那最痛的距离, 是你不在身边
却在我的心里.

Had a not very good week. Too much to think. Bad cramps. Pms-ing. Moodswing. Whats more? Sometimes i was wondering if i didnt pop out asking that question, probably we wont landed at this state. Yes, probably. How would i know that split second everything changes. But well, i choose to believe that Everything happened for a reason.

Despite of all the believings and things. I still feeel so damn down now. Why why why? But i just felt that the being-alone-feeling is damn fucky sucky. Faking a big fat wide smile is so much easier than to explain how exactly im feeling. What are the chances of people being there for me when they said they will be there for me? Getting a little tired, a little frustrated over planning what to do on a saturday night. Seriously. Why am i doing all these shit? Just because i dont want to be alone for that damn night.

Friends are the best companion. Yes, i know right. But they have their own private space with their girlfriend/boyfriend too. How can i be so selfish, right? FML.

亲爱的, 有你牵着我的那些日子真的好快乐.
Every month of 11th constantly reminds me how we came together and how much i miss you.
But i know time will heals, it will all get better in time.

bunnies year;

2011-02-07T16:40:00.012+08:00

HIHIHI, IM BACK!! :D

Had a memorable CNY this year (Y) Though it was very rushy rushy. Like what my dad says, machiam 去打仗. HAHAHA. It had been a couple of years since my family went back for cny. And this year was indeed a big reunion for 龍家. All the 兄弟姐妹 was back :>

初一;

Had breakfast then set off to G-Mo (Canto). And when translate to chinese it sounds like some, pig's hair. HAHA. Its alittle further up Ipoh. But still, kinda far uhhhh. So well. Went to the temple there, which is some Kong Fu Zi's (Confucious) temple. And its so emabrrasingggggg. WHY? Because the great MISS LOONG pronounced Confucious as Confusion. HAHAHAHHA, JOKE OF THE DAY.

龙王爸爸 and 妈妈.

After that, headed to Great grand uncles' house. Which is also nearby G-Mo. I got a total of 13 Great grand uncles and aunties! O.O As my grandma is the eldest in the family.. And all my great grand uncles are not married except for one o.o Kind of an interesting story on my grandma's side. Hmmmmm. well. You know in the past chinese like to have many children despite of how poor they are? And now i know how difficult it is to bring up children.

I LIKE THIS :> You can hardly find this pretty view in Singapore.

初二;

Had yummilicious meal prepared by my Mama (Grandma in Canto) :> She is a great cook. My mummy learn all her cooking skills from my Mama. Kind of like a reunion for the 2nd time. Whoaaaaaaa. Ngom nom nomxz. Life in Malaysia to me is really like a "Ji sheng cong". Only eat , sleep, play, eat sleep play everyday.

龍家's Grandsons and Grand daughters.
Cousins (L)

Sissys (L)(L)

At night went to my 姑妈's house for gathering. And guess what? It suddenly blackout!! The whole strectch of road is in total darkness i swear. And damn, i screamed like a Siao ehh when it suddenly turns black. My sister too. Damn funny. For a total of 2 hours in darkness. What the hell, seriously. Totally inefficient of the government larhh. Eating roasted pig in the dark with some companion of candles, Lou hei in the dark using torchlight to shine so that wont lou until everywhere. Romantic muchhhhhh. Memorable muchhhhhhh. Chit chat, played games, drink drank ~~drunk~~. The best part came whereby my drunkard cousin have to dance to the song "Fire burning" cos' she kena forfeit. And just then she was shaking here the light was back! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

To sum up all, CNY was great :>

thousand miles away;

2011-02-01T15:13:00.003+08:00

In another 4 or 5 hours time i will be leaving to Malaysia. Awwwwww. I hope it will be a good trip back... Although i know that.. Ahhhh shall not say much alreadyyyyyy. Sigh. But well. Miss me okkaes everyone. Heh.

Bye Fei zhu zai, miss mummy okkaes?

ANYWAYS. Painted my nails purple!! (Y) HEHE.

we might find a place in this world someday;

2011-01-29T17:11:00.004+08:00

14 days and im standing strong, still. Stronger than i ever thought i can be. Probably i really did grown up alot all these while, seeing things in different perspective. Hoping things will get better and better each and everyday. At least for now, i got to go my own way :>

Getting real crazy and wild, i like.

Wellwell, im going back Malaysia for CNY this year. Will be leaving on tuesday... Somehow felt alittle heavy hearted. There wont be any messages im looking forward to upon my return.. I know i am going to face all of them and gonna be like having Q&A session. Like, What the hell.

Maybe this trip back will be like a getaway? :>

I really really miss the times, the memories together. Everywhere i go seemed to have your presence, your smell, your trace.

reality;

2011-01-16T11:55:00.003+08:00

I hugged my mum and i cried so badly.. 20years of life, i had never hugged my mum like this before, other than when i am way much younger. I just couldnt help it but im really emotionally unstable. Lin was there with me throughout yesterday, be it physically or mentally, supporting me, standing by me, holding me when i fall. I really appreciate her presence, because i was really feeling so helpless. And she was there with me.. Thanks alot, sister.

When i opened my eyes this morning, i know i am going to be alone, gonna be on my own now. What is left with me now is Fei zhu zai and all the memories we had together.. It just hurts me so much. Way muchmuch deeper than the previous time when i fall out of love. I dont blame anyone. Because in a relationship, theres no right or wrong, whose fault isit. I just cant bring myself to face it that, how am i going to live, without having you in my life..

No more good morning texts/Goodnight texts from you.
No more long chatting session on the phone with you.
No more you cheering me up when i pms.
No more you hong-ing me.
No more you sajiao-ing to me saying "Taoyannnnnnn".
No more you sending me home after our date.
No more you worrying me, asking me to "Hui jia xiaoxin".
No more you lending me your shoulder to cry on.
No more you wiping off my tears.
No more you saying "I love you" to me.
No more you saying "I miss you" to me.
No more big bear hugs from you.
No more you kissing me.
No more you holding on to my small hands.
No more you saying me "silly pig".
No more you pei-ing me on a long bus ride home.
No more you showing me your adorable face when you are jealous.
No more you tickling me and trying to make me smile when im angry.
No more you sayang-ing my stomach when i had bad cramps.
No more you pinching my face and saying "Is this annoying".
No more you pinching and biting my nose.
No more you holding my waist when im falling when we taking bus bus/train.
No more you piggy back me.
No more you speaking cantonese with me and had a good laugh together.
No more you saying me "Gorgeous" and give me a peck whenever i ask you am i cute.
No more you saying "Hur, you only care about your hair, not your baobao".
And theres manymany more to list down...

No more you in my life, how am i going to live.....

what to do.

2011-01-13T21:14:00.003+08:00

I dont know whats going on with the MP/SIP thingy. I like gong gong not knowing what to do, seriously. But i attended the briefing last week. I cant find that damn link to the selection ehhh. But i must be fast and furious, because everybody is fighting for the filming project, Because im fighting for that too. I am so not going to take those Programming, or PCB Design. NO WAY. HAIYOHHHHHS. SO ANNOYING LARHHHH CANNNNNNNN.

On a brighter note, TGIF tomorrow!!! (:
Meaning to say, meeting my Dumbdumb real soooooooon!!! <3

I.am.sensitive.

生病了;

2011-01-11T15:10:00.002+08:00

Bad immune system equals to Bad health. And Bad health resulting FALLING SICK EASILY! Haixz ): I am sick againnnnnnn. Very bad lehhhhs. Haiyohhhhs. Its like, i just recovered a month or so ago. Now sick again. Haiyohhhs. What the hell mannnn.. ):

Im going to get my public speaking done and go to bed and rest. Im almost done already, abit more to go. But..... Im too lazy to wait for me to finish the cue card.

11.1.11, sucha niceeeee date.
Happy 13th ♥

reminder;

2011-01-04T18:38:00.003+08:00

Count your rainbows, not your thunder storm. 雨过天晴 :>

And im currently listening to 晴天. Niceeeeeeee! (Y) My area here just rain-ed and stop-ed not long ago. YAYS. But somehow i wish it will continue to rain.. HAHAH. Irionicgirl90.

Met up with Uncle Gan, had a filling lunch and great HTHT (: Catch up and updated each other with DAMN LOADS OF THINGS (L). And im sosososososo happy and excited for you lehhhhh! (I hope you will came across and see this post). Heheh, like seriously. Anyways, i really feel muchmuch and alot better already. I hope Uncle Gan too, clear all his doubts and stop thinking too much!!! (: (:

I actually saw myself while seeing him smiling/giggling/laughing out loud in front of his phone. And it just brought me back to the time when me and Dumbdumb was 暧昧-ing. Heheh. Someone told me before that period of time is the best of all. I agreed. I miss it alot alot lehhhh. Do you miss it, DumbDumb boy? Hehe.

逞强 or 坚强?

2011-01-02T16:11:00.004+08:00

有點煩是有點煩
我習慣沉默對峙吶喊
駕駛盤隨他去轉
免得說我刁蠻

有點難真的好難
我們得獨立同時委婉
多脆弱才算適度的勇敢

聰明人對愛很柔軟內心很強悍
現在懂是否已太晚

是逞強或堅強委屈都自己扛
我以為那是一種退讓是一種善良
我站在你身旁冷靜得像堵牆
把淚水都抵擋遮住自己傷口的真相
最後誰有心思體諒（多希望有人會體諒）
我的趾高氣揚（我的不愿投降）
是逞強或堅強

越隱藏越恐惶越是防不勝防
越設防越逃亡淪為沉默羔羊
為何不能夠好好愛一場公平著不需要誰投降

是堅強或。。。逞強

This song above, totally fits how im currently feeling.. And im fighting back my tears. I want to be strong whenever i encountered such things. Because yahhh, im the kinda of emotional person. I cried easily, i teared easily. But one thing i assure, i wont cried infront of my fellow friends. Im a strong ~~girl~~ woman in my friends' eyes. Excluding theres a time, i broke down infront of them..

A string of things happened in December. When i said a string means really is a string. Ahh fuck. What am i talking about. Tsktsk. But anyways. Im still feeling kinda down larhhh cos' im really thinking hard about whatever been happening all these while. Closer friends or sisters would know what happened. So yahhhh...

Im starting to wonder if all along, okkaes i meant recently, if im 逞强-ing or am i really strong in handling problems. I feel that like, I dont know. Sometimes whenever your loved ones pinned point some issues, you just agreed to it unknowingly. Be it you agreed or dont. Thats my weakness. Is like i wanted to fight or pin point back, i will just naturally lost my words. I thinking if im taking too much of the comments and wanting to improve on my, hmmm lets say for example larhh, temper? I mean like its good that to change something for someone. But ultimately, did the person changed anything for you? Its like, you wanted someone to change this change that, knowing that he/she is just what he/she is, he/she is just made likethat. And sometime you might just have to accept the fact that he/she is likethat. But some still want to change for a better for the person he/she love. Isnt it a way of showing love to he/she? Okkaes. Im really is thinking alot larhhhs, as usual. But whatever had been said yeaterday, left a very big scar in my heart, i fucking swear. And it still hurts. Tell me how to heal it, Fei zhu zai ):

But yahhhh. Then i came across this quote saying:
When you have something you really love but it causes you pain,
God is just testing you to see if you are strong enough to hold it.

Okkaes, i will take that as a guide to my problems? And stay positive to it? And i think i ~~need~~ want to go low-profile now. Should i delete my twitter? Or change it to private twitts? Hmmmm.

ngomxz.

2010-12-30T11:27:00.002+08:00

My face like a du lan only. Dont even know how come will have this shot.

The tomyum soup is damn best! (Y) REALLY NICEEEEEEEE. Hot and spicy ftw! Such a big plate of rice siol. And i finish most of it. Yumxz. Feel like drinking the soup again lehh. Heh.

~~Pain too much, hurt too much. Just too much.~~

Receptionist day 1;

2010-12-27T21:36:00.002+08:00

Today just by siting down at the reception is simply just an easy money earned larhhh. Totally like a 花瓶 larhhh, seriously. Nothing much to do lorhhh, make me feel so bored and i keep eating their sweets. Sweet die me :/ Apart from answering afew phonecalls, signing and chopping a couple of receipts, other than that im either stonning or day-dreaming or messaging.

But very pathetic, tomorrow last day of work :/

Hmmmmm, but im so tired. Im so going to sleeep early larhhh..

Anyways, i felt so different these days... in a bad way i guess.. Haixz. I dont know why. Need to settle down and talk to someone, urgently.

last christmas;

2010-12-24T22:17:00.003+08:00

Hihi, my name is Fei zhu zai :> Am i cute? HEHE.

What a chrismas eve, and im home alone. My mummy and daddyy are at some karaok party at TPY. My sister is out with her frinds. TSKTSK, VERY SAD :( No larhh. Actually im out today with Dumbdumb but im home early today cos' he is meeting his friends. AWWWWWW ): Cant spent the night together counting down for christmas...

Hmmmmm. Went to meet Nicole to collect my timesheet at Raffles. Today is half day for everyone! So yalorhhh. And she gave me a candy cane. So happy. Heheh. Went to Dumbdumb's camp and surprised him there :> But he knows me too well that he knew i will be there waiting for him. Opps. Hehe. Back to his place and bathe. After that, went for our tmm date. Heheh.

Head to bugis. And many people there. Dont like :/ And theres polices doing duty o.o Seems like there will be more polices doing their job preventing from some slashing case? Hmmmmm. Im currently watching 200 pounds beauty. Wahhhh. I think im going to watch my 破天网. SO EXCITINGGGGG LARHHH. Haiyohhhs, WANT TO WATCH URGENTLY.

Dummy boy got me a baby piglet. And his name is Fei zhu zai :>

suddenly;

2010-12-21T18:45:00.002+08:00

At what point do we realized that....

that the people who continue to disappoint us are not going to change? That no matter how many times they say they are going to do something or they say they will make those plans, they continue to disappoint time after time. At what point do we give up and stop trying, or do we never stop fighting for the ones we believe in and love?

Pretty true uhhhs. But put aside that. I am so angry larhhh okkkae. Sibei du lan, i swwear. Knn. Seriously. whats your problem larhh fuck. Save all you fucking comments cann? Nb.

fly with me;

2010-12-20T17:59:00.003+08:00

Exams are over! And here come my 2weeks holidays. Totally in holidays mood :> But still got some assignments to do. Sianxz max. But well. Shall enjoy enjoy first bahhhh. Christmas is only afew days away. Hehe. Excited. Wondering how will it be like for this year.. Heh.

I was hoping to get a job though. So that i will have some money to spend. Hehe. Still waiting to hear from my agent uhhh. Hopefully can get one? Hmmmm wellwell.

So, saturday went out with Dumbdumb after so longgg :> Me is kaixingirl90. Heheh. And also to celebrate our very first one year anniversary (: Yalorhhhh. Hmmmm. Went to the new shopping mall, Nex, at serangoon there. Find Gek there, cos' she is working at some perfume shop, and to borrow her polariod also. Heh. It was a not too bad place. But one thing i dont like is that the path is like too small le bahhh. Yalorhhh. Talking about shopping mall. I just realised Bedok Point is now officially open. Haven get the chance to shop there yet. But sooooon i will. Heh.

I once told someone that i will ask my next boyfriend bring me to the flyer. And my Dumbdumb did (: Hehe. It was meant to be a surprise for me but before that, i already asked him if we are going to the flyer.. Awwwwww. Kinda spoiled it but well. Im still happy to go with him (L)

Anyway... I dont know how to put this in words. Cos theres alittle thing happened after that, But i shall not say too much about it.... Hmmmmm. But i really want to thank everyone in Tonberry for so taking care of me and wanting to make me happy. Really touched.. Xiexie ni men ♥

一周年纪念日;

2010-12-11T21:39:00.003+08:00

Happy 365th days! ♥♥♥

This is how time flies. Hehe. But very sad, im stuck at home to mug for upcoming exams ): ): Really very sad. But its alright, shall work hard then enjoy enjoy myself muchmuch. 现苦后甜! (: I.REALLY.LIKE.A.CANT.WAIT.FOR.NEXT.THURSDAY.TO.COME.SERIOUSLY.

Studying for the past 2 days was kinda good and productive, especially with great companion :D Just that today really dont have the mood and heart to study. My mind and heart is like else where. Very bad hor ): Tsktsk. Maybe shall just chillax today and have an early night to replenish my lost-ed beauty sleep. Heh.

Ohwells. I know you gonna see this post and afterwhich bitching about it. Your guai lan face, your eyes, your nose, your mouth and everything, see already du lan. If i ever see you again right. I will go up to you and show you *Pointing middle finger* this right into your face. Hmmmm, & probably if im nice enough i will say Hi Bitch. Ohhh, this is my new way of saying "Hi" to you, and only to you.

A small dedication to you, Baobao ♥
Thanks for spending the wonderful 365 days with me. Im glad to have you with me. Ive learn alot in this. Other than trust and honesty, is To be grateful, learn how to cherish and not take things for granted, knows how to appreciate. Thankyou for everything, and for not giving up no matter how bad the situation we are in. Love is like a roller coaster. It has its ups and downs, twists and turns but at the end, you're next to the person who means the most. Thats you (: I love you ♥

take a break;

2010-12-09T17:03:00.002+08:00

I wanted to update yesterday but well you know larhhh. So, i was on MC yesterday. After being sick for the past entire one week, i finally then consult the doctor on tuesday. Tskktskk right! I thought the medicine which i had could help alittle. But uhhh, it somehow like worsen it? Thats why i went to see the doctor. Hmmmmm. And now, my fever is like back agian larhhh. Irritating ):

Anyways. My current life is no much different from a pig actually, except for today. Ive been eating and sleeping and eating and sleeeping. Because of the medicine ): Tsktsk, must fast fast recover. Term test is next week. And then, it will be holidays. EXCITED PRETTY MUCH!

I CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW, Xiao char shao bao! :DD

And the very sweet boyfriend of mine, bought lunch to my place yesterday ♥

hello december;

2010-12-01T21:06:00.002+08:00

First day of decemeber was not a very good start for me ): Im kinda in a emotional state or you can say having-too-much-thoughts kinda thing today. I have no idea why, but i dont feel good. And im moodless to do anything today. Hate it. Really. December suspose to be a happy month for me. But why am i having all these unwanted thoughts? Haixz.

My heart suddenly feels so tired and empty. As if it just died.

Tired of all the waitings.
Tired of hanging there alone.
Tired of whatever i do as much to show you that i care, i concerned.
Tired of being the one who keeps giving.
Tired of all the thoughts that is running inside me.

All these while, whatever i did, isit worth it? Am i really important to you? Are you that worth for me to do everything just for you? Are you willing to sacrifies your time for me? Are you willing to cancel any gatherings/meetups just for me because you want to meet me. Ive been questioning myself again and again, "Is this really what i want?" And everytime, i will tell myself everything is worth it, is worth fighting for. Im really getting tired you know. Everyday a little bit is more than enough to accumulate to a large sum.

I dont feel as important as before. Its not the same anymore..

memories, all alone in the mooonlight;

2010-11-26T20:42:00.001+08:00

Ohwells. Shall take today as an "off-day", and study again on sunday! Hehe. Because im really lazy. Bleahhhhs. And today ive completed afew missions. Hehe. ME IS PROUD!

Anyways, ive been spending my time clearing past messages in my old phone (Cos' my mum want to use). I miss those times. Hahaha. Currently listening to songs and re-reading messages and deleting all of them. Awwwwww. It just brought back so much memories in just half a day..

Too much memories of you, you, you and you.

right choice?

2010-11-25T17:55:00.003+08:00

After much thoughts and considerations, ive decided to drop the idea to be in the Iguides Subcomm. Im actually kinda sad but well, theres always chance for people who wants a choice. And sometimes, we will have to sacrifies something in order to gain something. I hope my choice is right and i should be firm to my choice.

Ive got too much commitments. I doubt my abilities, my responsibilities, my commitments.

哈利波特;

2010-11-22T20:19:00.006+08:00

Ohwells. Its back to monday AGAIN :/ As usual, cant wakeup on time, end up late. Tsktsk. So yahhhhhhhh. My weekend was very well-spent, celebrating birthdays. Hehe. So firstly, was celebrating ELENE LIEW the old woman's 22nd birthday on saturday!!!

So, we sisters met at Plaza sing first, and catch HARRY POTTER 7!!! Awwwwwwww. MY HAIRY HUSBAND!!! He is still as hairy, but i likeeeeeeeeee ♥♥♥ Those who have yet to watch. DONT WATCH THE 3D DE, Should watch 3D for the part 2 one. For part 1, not much lahhhh. Guess it will be a blast for part 2. CANT WAIT! And my DumbDumb is jealous of Harry. Hehe. He sent me a text saying, "Go pei your hairy boyfriend bahhhh..." Awwwww. HEHEHE.

After movie, we managed to 骗 ELENE to Astons @ Cathay. And she was surprised to see a VERY BIG SURPRISE (Inside joke). Heheh. Imagine the auntie style shocked face when she saw the rest (: Guess she enjoyed it much? Heh. So great to see Ling'er and Jiasheng again after so longggggggggg! After which, went chilling and drinking. HEH.

Mr and Mrs Donne Quek-Liew wants to hold their wedding at Bedok 85(!!!) With maincourse of Ahballing and Sugar cane. And now, Mr Leslie Liew says he also want to held our wedding at Bedok 85 market ): And our main course is Bar chor meeee. He says likethat then good, near my house. Can hold the wedding together also :/ TSKTSK. HAHAHAH.

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY ELENE LIEW!! ♥
(Please arhhh. Stop lying to yourself that you are still young. HEHE)

Sisters ♥

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Soso, yesterday was Belindaaaaaaaa's 21s Birthday! Went to help her with the decos and things at her chalet at Aloha Loyang. Met Dumbdumb first before meeting the rest. So yahhhh. And her birthday cake got 3 layer de, first 2 was the cute little cupcakes and the third is a cake. Awwwwww. Hehe. I think her birthday machiam like wedding. Got nice decos of pink and white ballons, got nice sunflowers from Weewee, Nice guestbook. Hehe.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BELINDAAAAAAAA!! ♥
(in advance)

Anyways, im like typing a very longgggg post today? Heh. So well. I need 灵感 for Project. Haiyohhhhs. Brain dead, so lazy, cant think already ):

And Dumbdumb is having outfield today until friday ): ): ): I dont know why, but now im feeling so heavy-hearted. Maybe its like after so long, he is going outfield again and he wont be there for me until friday. And im so going to miss him so very badly ):

when there was me and you;

2010-11-17T17:13:00.002+08:00

No waking up 630am eary in the morning today.
No MCT today (Y).
No Public speaking today (Y).

YESSSSSSSSS. Feel so shiok to sleeep all the way to 1pm. Opps. And with the rainy weather, makes me not want to leave my bed. Hehe. But well, school again tomorrow. So dreaded to go larhhhhhhhhhhh ):

Every minute of my life spent with you, its a lifetime of my happiness. Though we quarrel and fight, but i never want to lose you. Not even a single bit. Love that small hut, love the pouring rain, love the kisses, love the hugs. & Love you like i never before. ♥♥♥

-

2010-11-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

心, 好痛.

11-11;

2010-11-11T18:54:00.001+08:00

Happy 11th. ♥

you made me happy;

2010-11-08T17:39:00.004+08:00

My zoomed fat face. taken by Mr Liewwwwwwww.

I think i mentioned earlier about my maid-looking-alike passport photo. Yalorhhhh. So, going to do the renewal this coming saturday. Tsktsk. And ohhh. Im going back Ipoh fr CNY this year. Heh, kinda excited ehh? Because can play with different types of firecrackers. Other than those normal firecracker that goes "Pop pop pop", but also with those "bing bing pong bong" ones. WOW.

I want to go sing again so badly!!
I want to go roller blading also!!
I want to go flyer soooooooon!!

After so longgggggggggg, no more of "waiting for miracle". Because it just happened on saturday. And im so happppppppy max max. (: Credits to you. I want to see you real sooooon! Hehe.

battlefield;

2010-11-05T13:33:00.002+08:00

My newly-taken passport is fucking ugly max. Cant stand it. Look like some maid recruitment agency likethat. TSKKKKK. Seriously is cannot make it mannnnn!! SO UGALY TO THE MAX.

Dont try to explain your mind, i know whats happening here.
One minute its love, and suddenly its like a battlefield.
One word turns into war, why isit the smallest things that tears us down.
I never meant to start a war, you know i never wanna hurt you.
Dont even know what we fighting for.
Why is love always feel like a battlefield.
We could pretend we are friends tonight.
In the morning we'll wakeup and we'll be alright.
Cos' baby we dont have to fight. I dont want this love to feel like a battlefield.

turns 20;

2010-11-02T14:02:00.002+08:00

First week of school is like wow. Pretty sianxz to attend lectures. Tsktsk, but i still went FOR NOW. Hahaha. So, assignments is coming in and test in week 4. How great.

Soso, turned 20 on last saturday (: Had a great day ahead. Went Halloween party at PH with Huimin'er and friends, my sisterss, Ck and friends, Boyfriend and friends. DAMN HELL LOADS OF PEOPLE. So, never go club on festive season. Tsktsk. But still. ENJOYED MUCH!
(Except that im drunk) O.O

I think my dear sister is still in the 花痴 zone and she is loving it!!! :P

surprise, surprising, surprised (:

2010-10-24T20:41:00.004+08:00

Had an awesome weekend before schoo starts tomorrow! Woahhhh. Lets seee now. Had not been updating much, been real busy mannnnn. Nowm i shall had a brief update..

My OL-Routine-Life had ended! Miss my colleauge muchmuch mannnn! Loads of fun and jokes. And not forgetting eating yummy food with them. Awwwwwww. Now i miss Mango with Pomelo near my workplace. Its a VERY NICE DESSERT! MUST TRY MUST TRY! :D You will definitely fall in love with it. HEHE. So well, handed up my paysheet as well.. Need the money to buy textbooks mannnn ):

So, friday i went Bugis with Mummy. And had Mai Dang Lao Breakfast! (Y) Its been quite some time i went out with her and pei her shop.. Yalorhhs. Went temple and Baibai also! And bought so many many things! Yalorhhhhs. Headed home and rest awhile than met a friend to catchup catchup. And off to Orchard and meet HUIMIN'ER and Dummy Boyfriend. Catchup quite alotxz. And more to come! Our next event, HALLOWEEN NIGHT! Woooots. EXCITED PREETY MUCH!

My sisters together with my dummy boyfriend, surprised me on saturday :DD Awwwwww. Its a pleasant one (: And it my first birthday that my boyfriend is here celebrating with me (: I hope and, I wished upon a shooting star that, i will have you to celebrate with me for many many years (: (: Awwwwwww. So we filled our tummy at Rock & Ash. Its a pretty cool place with nice ambience. Love much. And the dory fish is really niceeeeeeeeee! Ngomxzxzxzxz.

Shall let the pictures do the talkings.

Want to say a BIG THANKYOU to my Sisterssss! :D
& ofcourse not forgetting my Dummy Boyfriend, ilydd ♥

9am To 6pm;

2010-10-12T21:51:00.002+08:00

Today is my first day of OL. Wellwell, love the office, love the pentry, love the environment, love the people there. HR Department are ALL 女强人!! HAHAHA, SERIOUSLY. Work was okkaes, except that typing and changing the data of 500 plusplus Employers and Employees made my eyes went cork. And i was yawning all days :/

Okkaes, well. But i hate queezing with the crowd early in the morning and evening ): Those peak hours. Hate it much ): So, i think i wont wear my heels so often to work. Sekali i lost my balance and fall o.o Ohmygodddddd. EMBARRASING MUCHHHHHHHH!

Now my daily routine will be,
-wake up at 650am
-Leave house @ 750am
-Work from 9-6
-Either home or Dinner outside
-Bathe and SLEEEEEP.

Anyways, Had a great weekend with the DumbDumb Boyfriend (:
Happy 10th Monthsary, ily ♥

301th.

2010-10-08T23:07:00.001+08:00

Glad to have you with me ♥

updates;

2010-10-04T18:50:00.002+08:00

Finally, i got a little time to update after so longggggg. Had beeb REAL busy eversince im back from Malaysia. And anyways, Back to Malaysia is so gooooood! ^^ Had been eating and eating and eating everyday. Proper meal for Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner, and sometime supper, without fail! HAHAHA. Opppppppps. Other than that, was a fun fufilling trip this time! Went back to Ipoh, my hometown. Then went KL to visit my aunt also, and went Genting!! HEHEHE. Miss Genting so muchhh! Its been 3 years since i went there ehhh.

And cam-whoring with Sissy, like mad! HAHAH. Really LOL at all out pictures! Heheh.

So now, back to work. Alrights. Work is both fun and tiring. Because have to work on weekends too, and off on Mondays. Awwwwwww. But well, Kind of a relaxing job just that have to travels alot alot. Its the travelling that kills when i have to visits afew Hawkers in a day. Tsktsk. And always got lost somewhere there :/

Okkaes, and got supp papper tomorrow! Wish me lucks!

getaway;

2010-09-17T23:41:00.002+08:00

Im going back malaysia, tomorrow. Awwwwww. Missed the food so much much! HEHEH. After which im back, i will be working already. Will blog more about it when im back next sunday (:

TAKECARE EVERYONE!!! (:
& especially you.

Imy, deepdeep.

pissed ttm.

2010-09-14T20:34:00.003+08:00

Im tired of it, already. HAIXZXZXZ.

I wanted you to be there when i fall.
I wanted you, I wanted you.

But, where are you?

9th.

2010-09-12T16:21:00.003+08:00

Its so ironic at times where i hope/wish/dying for exams to end so to enjoy hoildays. But once exams are over, i find it so bored, and got nothing to do :/ TSKTSK. Probably i haven get a job now bahhh, thats why. But uhhh, even if i work i guess i will only got a month to work lorh.

I NEED LOADS OF MONEY TO ROLL INTO MY POCKET, URGENTLY.

I feel so pok nowadays lorhhhh. HAIXZ. Though i just received my Panaflex pay a few days back. (LIKE, FINALLYYYYYYYYY!) But i had already spent all lorhhh, paying my own bill(!!!)Haixz. 钱钱钱钱钱, 不够用!

But anyways, my weekend were great and well-spent (L). Hehehehe. And serisouly, its a wrong choice to go Sentosa on a public holiday! And because its a public holiday, there ia ALOT OF AH PER NEHS(!!!!!!) Okkaes, im abitbit racist but yahhhhhhh!! REALLY LORHHHHHH! We walked along the beach and what we saw was all Ah per nehs :/ TSKKKKKKKK. DumbDumb says im very very badddddddd! HEHEHEHE, Dont care.

And the weather was bad tooooooo! Awwwwwww, so sad :( So ended up we taking the monorail here and there, walk walk sit sit stop stop. Took a trip down to Universal Studio to check it out. But like, nothing much lehhhhh :/ Too pack with people areadyyyyyyyy! Tsktsk. Back to Marina Square to have dinner!! :D Love the night, the breeze, the singings, the htht, and you (:

Finally get to meet up with YU WEI TONG & ALEX yesterday night!!! :D Went to get his DSLR thingy then Had dinner and chill and htht and many photos taking!! HEHE. YAYSNESS (Y).

闭上双眼你在身旁, 你是我的幸福月光.
Happy 9th Monthsary ♥

Free like a bird;

2010-09-09T15:19:00.002+08:00

我自由了!!

YES!! Today marks the end of all my papers! AWESOME! :D
Well, now shall wait for the results to come out. Like abit anti-climax uhhs :/

last;

2010-09-05T13:04:00.003+08:00

TOMORROW is the day. Going to have 2 papers! Cant wait to end exams, seriously. Hmmmm, i think i should be quite okkae with the subjects im having for tomorrow (: Heheh. I hope its gonna be a good start tooo. And dad says tuesday is the end of the "one month holidays" for them. Going to baibai also, after my paper.

Currently right now, im abit drifted uhhhs. Some thing is bothering me. I hate it, especailly when its so near exams period. Where i should put aside it but i cant. And then like cant concentrate, cant focus. Haixz. Sucks to the max ehhh :( :(

Have you ever not considering someone's feeling? And the person is actually someone you loved.

I hate it to the max when you only thought of yourself when comes to clubbing. And i can only act like im okkae so that you can enjoy with your friends, so that i wont spoiled your moood. And the feeling is so suck :( But i cant possibly dont let you go.

tskkkkkkkkk

2010-09-01T15:42:00.001+08:00

Today is really not my day for studyinggggg! :( Cannot concetrate ehhh, because of the constructions near my house. TSKKKKKKKKK. And like no moooood. Tsktsk.

aixin maggie meeeee;

2010-08-30T16:55:00.002+08:00

What another weekend had passed. Back to reality :/ Going to be a hardwroking mugger for this week untill exams ends. Proud to say that ive been studyinggggg :D HEHE. BUT, Teleprn is the only thing that makes me headache. Tsktsk. Guess im going to spend more time on Teleprn, to 和它做朋友and摸清楚它的地! HAHA.

Hmmmmm. And i had aixin maggie mee for dinner yesterday (:
Thankyou Dumbdumb ♥

sick bug;

2010-08-24T13:03:00.002+08:00

Awwwwww. Ive been sickk for almost a weeek :( Down with fever, cough which further on leads to lossing my voice, very bad flu which make me cant breathe properly, and haedache :( :( And i had yet to recover :( Haixzxz, like a so poor thing only.

Had been studying, for one subject only :( Very badddddd. Haven touch EM3, Teleprn and Edev at all! Tsktsk. I must do something about it liaoxz i guess. But now i seriously feel like sleeeping le. Probably the medicine is taking the effect :/ Awwwww. Haixzyohs.

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! :D

Tied down day; HEHEHEH

2010-08-15T14:53:00.003+08:00

Despite of my pms-es and moodswings earlier on, i still enjoyed my time with DumbDumb Yesterday (: Had Mos Burger, and all time favourite corn soup (Y) HEHEHE.

Afterwhich met Gek and XL at orchard and trained all the way down to CCK. DAMN HELL FAR CANNNNNN :/ Nehhhmind, reached CCK liaoxz, need to take LRT to Phionex(?) Dont know how to spell ehhhs. Hahaha. And hor, dont laugh at me arhhh. Its my first time taking LRT lehhhs :/ MAHAHAHAHAHA.

Waited for the Birthday Boy Bryan to fetch us to his house. And WAHHHHHHHH!! His house is REALLY BIGGGGGGG TTM!! (Can you afford this kind of house DumbDumb?) HAHAHAHA. Waited for everyone and had steamboat (Y) Heheh. I think its more of Snatching food than steamboat ehhh! Especially with XL, Leslie Liew and Weewee around! Really is scary one siahhh!

Left around 11pm and Bryan drop all of us at Chinese garden MRT there. Then we trained back home. Back to Pasir ris and collect car. And DumbDumb sent me home (:

He look so cute when he is jealous; He is like a little boy when he is sa jiao-ing to me; He said he is going to tied me down tight tight; He said whenever im out with guys i will feel guilty after looking at my left wrist; He said i dieeeeee also cannot drop it; He is my favourite boy;
My dearest dumb boyfirend ♥

8th;

2010-08-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

Today ne. I seriously think that i wasted my time alot ehhhs :/ Last week i agreed working for my friend as a tele for the Events4u. So yahhh. I went work today ehhh. And i think i only really worked for 3 hours then knock off liaoxz. TSKTSK.

For the first time i spent so much time on travelling and it so pissed me off. Its like, i spent about 3 hours travelling to the place. Like, ohmygoddd. I left house at 830am and i reached the place is like 1130am? Because the place is really very far, i took bus from my house to inter, change to train, change to red line train, took bus to the nearest bus stop near the workplace, walk a distance to the workplace. And its located at some REALLY ulu ulu Industrial area O.O

And the suey-iest thing is that, i went for lunch break at some coffee shop. When i reach and settled down, it started pouring heavily. Tskkkkkkkk. I dont have an unbrealla with me :/ Soooo, i waited until 230pm and its still raining heavily. Then someone lend me an umbrella :/

Wahhhhhhh, really is cannot tahan siahhh. Tooo far liaoxz. So im not working already. Just one day im already really sianxz of it. Whats more to say if i work for longgggg. Sorrry zihui! :/

Happy 8th Monthsary Baobao (:
Thankyou for the presant, love you much much ♥

爱, 很简单.

2010-08-08T14:34:00.002+08:00

Had a great weekend with DumbDumb (: And i feel really happy today, from the bottom of my heart. Its like, ive not been feeling this way since quite sometimes back where alots of things happened. But yes everything now is going back to track i guess? And im really really feel so happy. 快乐, 可以很简单 (:

Wanted to watch my movie (SALT) by Angelina ~~Jolie~~ JOEY, but tickets were selling very fast. So ended up didnt watch. Hehe. Yalorhhhhs. Tomorrow will be meeting Porus to watch Old Cow vs Tender Grass. Awwwwww. Heheh. Cant wait!!!

And now im catching another taiwan drama. It actually came out quite awhile le. 下一站, 幸福. ITS SO NICEEEEEE! But also like a very sad :/ Yalorhhhhs.

eighteen chef;

2010-08-05T19:39:00.003+08:00

Relationships last long because two brave person made a choice; to keep it, fight for it and to work for it.

I got back my phone on tuesday after like 2weeks! Like a finally!! :/ Met Belinda @ Simei after my lesson. Waited for quite awhile for the service! So wols!! TSKTSK. Had HTHT with her (: Hmmmm, yalorhs. Im feeling a little bitbit better i guess, unlike the past week.. So yahhhhh, hopefully things goes right for me and for DumbDumb.

Waited for Gek, XL, Weewee for dinner @ Eighteen Chef! Ngom nom nom~ Surprisingly and so qiao that he got nights out that day, so we had a tripple date @ Eighteen Chef. HAHAHA. Like quite cool uhhhs. Heheh. And now i think baked rice is yummy. Bleahhhhs. Bel and Gek headed for dance at Raffles, Weewee headed home, Me & Dumb & XL headed tampines.

TOMORROW IS MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! Like a very longlonggggg holidays, until last week of October! Awwwwwwww. Lady luck is on my side ^^ I was wanting to look for a job, and just then Zihui called me to help in her Events Company, BUT its at somewhere in between AMK and Yishun! O.O I think i will lost there, like seriously! :/

monopoly deal;

2010-08-01T18:49:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY RUBAYN!! (:

Waited for DumbDumb to pick me up while im with Lin HTHT-ing @ Xiaoyi's house. Went NSRCC for Mr Rubayn's chalet after that. Had a walk to the breakwater. The wind was so strong, making my hair so duper messsy :( It was the very first time that i couldnt look directly into your eyes like how i used to do before. It just hurts me lots.

What im feeling right now is like; im in the tunnel i thought i saw a flash of light but it turn out to be the train coming towards me in high speed. And i feel so helpless. I know this time round its going to be even harder for us, and im not sure what its gonna happpen, and im not sure if we are able to make it through. But im hoping for the very best, we are trying, we are not giving up till the very end. Give me all your strengh to pull me through and i promise to hold your hands.

amor;

2010-07-28T18:28:00.003+08:00

Love doesnt make the world go round.
Love is what makes the ride worthwhile (:

Had not been updating due to my super lazyness :/ Hmmmmm, well. Life is getting busier and busier. With LOADS of submissionsssss this 2 weeks. Tsktsk. Working very hard for MODANI. Urghhhhh, still got tonnes things to do. Lke a never ending :/ But a very bright note, next week will be the last week for schooling! Super yaynesss!! Cant wait mannnnnnn! :D AND OHHHHH, had my Jap Roleplay today and it was totally screwed up, TCMI!!! Well, its over though.

Last weekend i went to MBS, and the skypark is awesome. So prettyyyyyyyyy~ Yalorhhhs. Love the scenery, and my DumbDumb said he got the feel for Bintan. HAHAHA. Anyways, yahhhh. Next day was out with Belinda, Gek, Xl, Wee, Sheena and DumbDumb. Played 食指路口. Pretyy interstingggggg. (Y) MORE PLEASE :D

Theres a reason why a seasaw was made for 2 person is so that when you go down, there would always be someone to lift you up again. Though things happened recently, making us feel differently. I guess thats a part and parcel, hope we will be back to the normal and be alright soooon. No matter what happened, you are still my beloved DumbDumb ♥

agreed ttm;

2010-07-20T19:10:00.002+08:00

You know whats the one wrong thing we all do when we fall in love?
We EXPECT.
And it just ruins everything.

Agreed pretty much. That explains partly to what had happened these days. And yalorhhhs. The more you love the person, the more you will expect from him/she.

Come back to think, its somehow like i dont know how to say. But its like i always thought Boyfriends will give their girlfriend small small surprises and things. I mean as in like not always, but once in a while? And by doing that it also helping to keep up the relationship luhhh. BUT YAHHHHHHH, i think it will only happen in Drama, NOT IN REALITY. Ehhh? But i got friends whose boyfriend is really very sweeeeeeeeet ehhh. I think its depends bahhh.

And i learn that :
男人是四肢发达,头脑简单的动物.
你想了一百圈他连一圈都还没想到. 所以没有必要为了他们而生气.

Action speaks louder than words.

再痛多一次;

2010-07-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

Heart broken into pieces.

没有你的第二十天;

2010-07-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

Hauyee hen kaixinnnnn~ Because DUMBDUMB IS COMING BACK, LIKE TOMORROW!!! :D Will reach airport around 830pm or so!~ HEHEHE. Most likely im going down there. LP Sam and Dummy will be pei-ing me go!!! (L) Thanks Robot and Dummy~ Thats so sweeet of Dummy because she says she pei me go after her movie with LP Sam! BIG BIG (L).

Thanks to LP Sam's dad whom helped me check the flights, because he is controlling the flights or something. SO COOL! Slack, slacking, slacked at His house until Maths tutorial. Like a WAHHHHH. We 3 ended up watching some horror movie! Ehhhh no, me is watching while Robot and Dummy is having some 咏春拳过招. Damn funny larhh these 2 dummies :D

20 MORE HOURS! :D

没有你的第十九天;

2010-07-11T13:31:00.003+08:00

Happy 7th Monthsary, Baobao ♥

2 more days to go and you will be back le! (: Jiayou jiayou okkaes? Dont forget to take me back hor! Or not i will go with the 21st Guy alreadyyyy. HAHAHAHAHA. Time actually do flies. Its our seventh month together le. And this time round you are not around.. Hmmmmm, feeling quite sad and lonely. Probably pms also :/ But well, its okkaes i still can tahan for 2 more days (: But then you must 连本带利 repay me when you are back! HEHEHEHE. Bleahhhhhs.

Yesterday;
Met Dummy @ Tampines to pass her back the panaflex t-shirt(!) Need to returnnnnnn! :/ Meet Ah Yannn there too before we trained down to Cityhall. Had late lunch at Just Asia (Y) then after that was movie. Watched Despicable Me! I thought it would be some nonsense boring cartoon show but it turned out to be soooo cuteeeeeee and funnnnny~ Like the kissing part! DAMN very funnnnny!! HAHAHAHAH. Shopping around, walked here and there, bought his sweater at Topman. Sit down and slack, becasue lazy to move. And we saw fireworks for a short few seconds :/ TSK.

Okkaes well, i think i was like having moodswing for the entire day :/ Di bu qi uhhhs.

找不到人说心里的寂寞.

没有你的第十七天;

2010-07-09T21:23:00.002+08:00

Im a housewife today. I cleaned my WHOLE house today. Because 龙家's 皇太后 and other 贵妃(s) is coming to singapore next tuesday. HAHAHAHA. My beloved Grandma and her sisters wil be coming here for holidays (: Also good uhhh, its really time to 享清福 at this age :D I hope when i old i can visit many places with you too ♥

I took down this big box, which ive not touch it for ages. Inside the box was those letterssss, cards, gifts and little things from Adeline, Daphne, Valerie and Xiaojun (: It was like, back to those good old school days in Bedok View. In sceondary 1, we alaways like, write leeters for each other and things. Until now, i still keep the little things by them (:

And somehow, im feeling like quite sad.. As in like, it seems like i had drifted far apart from them :( Its my fault bahhh, for not spending time with them. And thats actually one of my regrets.. Our 8 years of friendship... I missed everything that we've been through together, be it happy, sad, quarells, fights. nonssense. Because afterall, it brought us all together (: I hope i can be like the past, out with you girls, chatting here and there, gossipings, nonsense-ing..

My another regret was.. I happended to see 2 post cards from H. She was my first friend and was my Bestfriend in Secondary 1. But well, we had quite alot of happening things in between and resulted in what we are now. We are like, not even friends. Beacuse im the one who say i wont treat her as a friend that time when we are quarrelling big time. Yaalorhs. The 2 post cards is the only things she left for me and meomories. Sometimes i feel that it was me, that why she changed into another person. But, i dont regret knowing her in Bedok View and having her as my bestfriend before..

没有你的第十六天;

2010-07-08T21:59:00.002+08:00

Damn very de slack today. Attended EDEV Lab at 9am, then EDEV Tutorial at 4pm! WAHHHHHH. Practically like a relac only lehhhhs. Feels guilty for not attending lectures. But well, i still do it :P HEHEH. Bleahhhs.

Hmmmm, so after Lab was slacking with Aaronnnn @ Short circuit there. Stupid assssss. HAHAHA. Talk abit here and there, And i know our secret liao Aaronnnnnnn Lim! :P Bused down to Tamp and meet Dummy then to Lp sam's house. (: Yalorhhh.

Elias Mall de 鱼片米粉 is NICEEEEEE! (Y) I LIKEEEEEE!!! Really is like a nice only~ Heheh. After filling up our tummies, slacked at Lp sam's house. Me and Dummy ended up watching SPONGEBOB and 孤男寡女 (Damn old show by Andy Lau and Sammie)! HAHAHAHAHA!
Back to school for the last tutorial. AND, i went in and sat for 5 mins then jiu end lesson liaooooo!! My asss haven sit until hot lorh jiu finish liaoo. FAST!!!

Time flies, 5 more days to your return! Im so happy! (Y) The feeling was good becasue i know you will be back sooon. Unlike the starting of the week that you're away, it seems like ages to me and we are so far and nehver near.. Awwwwwww. Cant wait to see you again darling (L) IMY (:
等待,我随时随地在等待.

没有你的第十五天;

2010-07-07T17:02:00.002+08:00

Im back home early today (Y) Feels so good. But always feel so sleepy when im home :/ Wellwell.. And hor, when i came baack home yesterday, i took a nap in my living room because no one is at home. I think my leg was in an awkard position then it was like, numb! Wahhhh. Then i was like, half asleep half awake. And i remembered VERY clearly that i fell down on my floor and i dot know why! So now, theres a baruku on my kneeeeee!! So pain siahhhh!! :( Tsktsk, stupid me.

Anyways, damn slacky today!!! Had TELEPRN Lab at 9am then jiu end school liaooooo! But i die die have to go JAP class today uhhhs. Yalorhhhhs!! Was like a sianxz and pissed :/ But anyways. IM SO SAD. Theres no work on this weekend! WAHHHHHH, VERY SAD LEHHHHS! Beacuse the boss like a not happy lorhhhh :/ HAIXZXZ. No more free samples. No more eyeing at Hot angmoh(s). No more woring with Fiona. Awwwwwwwwwwww.

And oh yess, one more week to go and you will be back on 13th le! (Y) JIAYOU!! (: Cant wait for your return! HEHEH. Miss you soooooooo muchh luhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ):

没有你的第十四天;

2010-07-06T21:08:00.002+08:00

Finally done with the Jap thingy, hope that nothing goes wrong again. But then come back to think, feel so pissed with this person in my group siol. TSKTSK. He thinks that he is the only guy so dont have to do anything. Wtf. Wahhhh, then inside the roleplay i have to act like i like him O.O Ohhhhhhhhhhh, TSK.

MODANI, is the killer. I think most of the things is done by my partner siahhh because i really like, noob lehhh :( Yalorhhhs, felt bad though. But well, will try to do my part also larhhh (:

Im so tired, im going to sleep now le. Goodnight!

没有你的第十二天;

2010-07-04T21:20:00.002+08:00

Work was @ Plaza sing today. TOTALLY TIRED. My legs are tired, got blister somemore! ): But it was fuunnnn!! :D Especially with my partner around :D Heheh. Busy eyeing for HOT guys. And we saw a very handsome angmoh! (Wopps, Sorry Darling! Heheheh) So it will be until next weekend then i will be able to see her.

Back to reality. Sadly, theres school tomorrow. 8am lesson! Awwwwwww, sad-ed siahhhh ): Which means, need to start mugging liao le. I think i shall studyfor the upcoming quizes, so at least i can score abit here and there then my Main exam will not be so jialat. Heheh.

Okkaes, shall hit the sack. Tired tired! Goodnights everybody! (:
& Goodnight to you, love. 10 more days.

没有你的第十一天;

2010-07-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

Today was a well-spent Weekend (:

First was work. So, me is working for this event for 2 weekends including tomorrow and the next both weekends! It something like a promoter sample-giver larhhh~ Easy job actually. Heheh. Ohh yahhhh, im giving the Panaflex free samples. So, today im working @ Fareast area. With my new friend, Fiona!! :D She is damn cuteeeeeeee!! Small small size one. Then we are like talking and chatting. Was nice to meet her larhhhh (: And so qiao that, we actually live quite near to each other!! ;D

Wahhhhh,i think we damn sueyyy! But suey dao also quite not baddd larhhh. It was raining, and We tio gan for 2 times! We are actually supposed to give out those flyers and samples at Fareast there de, but then the security chase us out so we moved to Tangs. The funny part was, because we both have to give out 4 cartons of samples. We dont have strenght and so we decided to carry one box each to Tangs first, then come back Fareast and collect the other box. Then when we reached Tangs, security guard was like surronding our 2 cartons at the bench there. And they thought that, It was a bomb. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. Damn funny!! First time siol! But anyways, we got chased out again, so we bo bian have to go underpass :/ But wasnt that bad larhhh, got aircon!! Heheh.

I met my Twinny sister for Dinner!!! It was so good to see her again! :D Had dinner and catched up with each other. So loved~ Heheheh. Our deal is on twinny! Heheh.

没有你的第九天;

2010-07-01T21:19:00.001+08:00

So baby i will wait for you
Cos' i dont know what else i can do.

没有你的第八天;

2010-06-30T19:59:00.002+08:00

What a tiring day today even though today is the most slackiest day of the week. Awwwwww ): Yessssss, submitted my TELEPRN Report and it was like, quite badly done by me uhhh :/ Had Jap test today also. I screwed it too, i think :/ Yalorhhhhhhhhhs!

Attended CM Talk today. Beacuse i failed 2 subjects :/ And its quite badly failed ehhhhs :S Yalorhs. Im so gonna work very hard for these 4 subjects! I dont want to take supp papers again and again.. Ahhhh well. And tests is coming sooooooon! WAHHHHHHHH! And im so addicted to Baking Life!! ^^V HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Alrights, i shall end here. Gonna do my modelling of lamp post, sofa, table, television and MORE!! Byeeeeeeeeeee.

没有你的第七天;

2010-06-29T20:55:00.002+08:00

School was actually pretty relac today uhhs. Heh. I like i like. Had EM3. And ohmygoddd, Test next monday :/ Totally screwed, dont understand ): And MODANI, guess me and my partner is progressing well :D Done modelling with my Vampire and the human! Thanks partner!! :DD

I want to go sing agains!! HEHEHE. And ohhh, i will be working this weekends and next weekends. I want to do something to pass my weekend like urgently :/ Somemore got money if i work also. But veryyyy saddddd, the last slot is taken and i cant pair with Ling'er! ): ): DAMN SADDD!! D: But its okkaes, i guess it should be alright working with others de (:

After this post, im going to like chiong my TELEPRN Report! 5 pages! And im only like on the first page! ): Very badddd!!! And tomorrow is Jap test also. WAHHHHHHH. I so feel like sleeping lorhss! Zzzzzzz.

没有你的第六天;

2010-06-28T20:39:00.003+08:00

Urghhhhhh, Monday is like always blue to me :/ And it was 2nd week of school :/ I only attended MODANI early in the morning o.o YALORHHHS. Might as well dont go school hor? :P Headed down to Ehub with Lp sam, Dummy, Raj, Weihong, Hid, Yongmeng, Terrence to have lunch @ Just Asia! My all time favouriteeee, Spicy chicken!! :D Hehe.

After that, met Andre and JT at Kbox. And yes, sing sing sing and sing! Was like totally crazy after some left. Heheh. Doing all those weird weird things like some, trying hard to do a baby freeze BUT totally FAILED! HAHAHAHA. Damn funny!! Was funnnn though! HEHEH :D

Hmmmmm, yes. This is how i spent my monday. BUT! Im now going to rush some Japanese script for the upcoming roleplay :/ And this asshole like doesnt want to do anything uhhhhs. TSKTSK! Will give him some "colours" if he didnt do. MAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! ♥ (Susposed to post this like yesterday)
& Happy 200th days (:

没有你的第四天;

2010-06-26T12:01:00.004+08:00

Its a saturday today; and for the first weekend i feel so weird without you here ): Awwwwww. And so. I went for a baby's First Full-month de buffet lunch. Heheh. Yalorhhhs.

After which, trained down to Marina sqaure and watched "Knight and Day" with CK and friends (: Actually it was suposed to be Porushine outing de and it was his first book out, yalorahs. But most of them cannot make it sooooooooo, ended up i just meet with him and friends. CK and his botak head :D HEHEH. Belahhhhs. Its was quite a nice movie though. And i realized Tom Cruise is sooooooo HOT ^^ HEHEHEHEHEHEHEH.

Had dinner @ Fish&Co, and also celebrated a friend's birthday there. Walked around at Esplanade and chill chill there (; HTHT with CK (: Yalorhhhs.

When i was sitting down near the river side, i suddenly saw the moon. It was so round and it reminded me of you (: Miss you very much luhhhs. Hoping that you will be here by my side..

没有你的第三天;

2010-06-25T21:20:00.002+08:00

下雨天了怎么办,我好想你.

It was like, raining so heavily this morning when im going to school. Awwwwww. And was damn freakng cold mannn. I think i almost got blow away together with with my umbrella :/ HAHAHA. Wellwell, had a 2 hour lesson for today only. Yalorhhs. Bumped into Leon and chatted for awhile. And yes, was good (: Thanks for feeling how im feeling and motivate me ehhhs. Appreciate much (: Anyways, thanks dude.

We aint meeting tomorrow ): Not used to it ): But its okkaes, we will be meeting soon le :D Lets jiayou together! & i miss you.

没有你的第二天;

2010-06-24T22:00:00.002+08:00

Today's lesson was like pretty slack. Maybe its me who is slacking bahhhh :P Heheheh. Im only like, attended 2 lessons? One in the morning for some EDEV Lab, and the last tutorial. Like, WOAHHHHH DAMN ZAI HORS. Heheh. After lab, went down macperson there to repair car (Tyres) with Aaron. HE IS SO ASSSSSSSS. Keep saying he drive bery the pro -.- Bleahhhs. Had breakfast cum early lunch? Heh.

After which, drove back to school and meet Dummy en & Robot sam and friends to Tampines for lunch, @ Pastamania! I didnt eat though, was full. Slack here and there, bused back to school again for the last lesson. Because its tutorial :/ &&&&& I WANT TO GO SING BADLY!!! ):

You must be a good runner, because you’re always running on my mind. You must be a great thief, because you’ve stolen my heart. But I must be a horrible shooter, because I’m always missing you. Its the second day you are in Brunei le.. 20 more days to go.

我在等一个人,在等我的永恒.

没有你的第一天;

2010-06-23T21:33:00.002+08:00

School was pretty fine, but just tired. Haven even touch on my Gantt chart and Task list yet, and to be handed on this coming friday ): Awwwwwww. How sad is that. Had heart to heart talk with Uncle Gan, it was good to catch up with each other after so longggggg (Y) Yalorhh. And i got to know about some ugly sides of people :/ But well, hope that Uncle Gan is feeling okkae with whatever is happening now..

I guess i will be back to blogging everyday? Hmmmmm, take it as an everyday diary? Wellwell.

Its the first day that you're in Brunei le. Hoping everything went well for you. Im still thinking that you're here in Sg, having training late in the night or probably outfield. But the fact was, you are already in Brunei le.. And i miss you pretty much, and its only the first day ): 20 more days..

你出现在我诗的每一页.

七里香;

2010-06-22T21:58:00.002+08:00

雨下整夜我的爱溢出就象雨水
院子落叶跟我的思念厚厚一叠
几句是非也无法将我的热情冷却
你出现在我诗的每一页.

Awwwwwww, now im totally in love with this song! (: So niceeeeeeeee. Anyways back. Im gonna be like a so busy liaoooooo. Have to start doing with MODANI. And me and my partner is going to model my storyboard, which i think its gonna take us a very big time because got alot of things to meodel like the sofa, table, house, windodw etc etc. Especially My vampy. HEHE.

Yalorhhhs. Hmmmmm, and gotten my term test. So far i passed my EM3 and failed TELEPRN and EDEV quite badly :/ But yalorhs. Will work on hard on it mannn because i dont want to rtak the module agains.

In another 3 hours plusplus, Dumbdumb will be flying to Brunei for 21 days.. Awwwwww ): Will miss him like, a manymany much de ): No meeting on weekend. No messages. No callings. No nothing.. And yahhh, its gonna be quite tough i guess? But we will work towards it de (: && Hope my lettersssss will pei you throughout the 21 days. And do takecare of yourself!

6th.

2010-06-13T13:02:00.001+08:00

绝望.

It was never a fairy tale. I dont know what to say.
But yahhhh. I dont know what i did for you isit worth.

hold on to me;

2010-06-08T13:55:00.001+08:00

You only thought of yourself being sianxz for having outfield at Tekong,

then what about me?

This month seems hard for us to pass by uhhs..

wish right now;

2010-05-30T01:25:00.002+08:00

If i have a wish right now, i wish that you are not there.

Awwwwww. Seems like im being a little selfish here? BLEAHHHSS. Im not. Okkaes, maybe a little? All the unwanted feelings of feeling-confused-and-sad-but-not-really-sad-but-yet-more-of-uneasy kind of weird feelings is gone, i guess. Im just over-thinking bahhh? Im just being paraniod. Im just worried. But yahhhh, i have faith in him. Because i know he wont do that to me (:

But i guess all this uneasy-ness is definitely not comfortable and makes you feels like "How come im the only one worrying while he's enjoying?" and worry if its going to affect your realtionship. Copyrighted from Elene.

THIS actually speaks my mind one hour back. But yahhh right now, i guess its true that im over-worrying too much le bahhhh.. Hmmmmm, so yalorhs. And i feel so guai today. I STAYED AT HOME AND STUDIED! (:

haixzxzxz.

2010-05-23T18:07:00.002+08:00

I feel so damn hardworking today mannnn! I studied today. SURPRISINGLY EHHHS? One more week to term test. And i guess theres still LOADS that i need to catch up. Especially TELEPRN >:( And EM3 needs loads of practices. And EDEV needs loads of study and practices. Haixz. Haixzxz. HAIXZXZXZ.

Currently, moodless.
You may not realized that your one sentence can totally change my mood.

Airplanes;

2010-05-18T21:27:00.005+08:00

This is for you, DUKE YEEEEEEEEEE.
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY! :D

&&&, This is for YOU, Mannnn.

Okkaes, im going to continue with my Netfund and afterthat, so going to watch the last episode of Vampire Daries, Season 1. HEHEHE.

Im single but not available;

2010-05-16T16:58:00.002+08:00

Went DUKE'S 21ST BIRTHDAY @ NSRCC yesterday. It was a great and successful party ehhhs (: Met Dumbdumb at Century Square and had Popoye for lunch, then Flolick afterthat. He cant take sour things uhhs. And he walks like a old man today. Awwwwww. The 24km road march must be a killer. HEHEHE. Bus-ed down to Tanah Merah mrt and meet Huimin'er before taking shutter bus to the chalet. Heheh.

As usual, im the camwhore queen. Super zi lian. Heheh, but i like :D Camwhored with my Min'er and its awesomeeeeee! HEHEHEHE. Luckily she went there too. Alot of people was present. But awwwwww, a pity that i didnt get to see some of my closer friends as they came super late.. Andand, was so super crazy that Me, LP Sam and Uncle Yeo keep doing the Robot sex thingy. We have photos for that. HAHAHAHHA. Damnnnnnnnn funny.

Awwwwwwww, love my polariod picture with Baobao (: Heheh.
Credits to Huimin'er! :D

5th.

2010-05-11T16:54:00.002+08:00

Quiz week is here. And i flunk 3 papers :/ Awwwwwww. Didnt study much, cant blame o.o
Hmmmmm, school was pretty alright. With nonsensicals jokes here and there. Bleahhhhs. And i finally handed up my MODANI assignment. My mummy keep laughing at my drawings when i show here the video i made. My drawings REALLY sucks mannn i have to admit it. But, im lovin' it. HEHE.

Time flies, indeed. And Baobao left with one more year to ORD. 亲爱的，加油 (:
& Happy 5th to us ♥

或许;

2010-05-02T13:53:00.003+08:00

Maybe Leon is right, i should keep my social circles small to prevent all these from happening. I really hope i can salvage it..

MODANI.

2010-04-26T21:07:00.003+08:00

ARGHHHHHH! Im really suck at this Animation thingy but i need a story outline with its setting and characters. Afterwhich will be proceeding into the modelling part. And im really really stuck at this :( Ive yet to come out with a good story :( But somehow, i got a draft idea which is something gonna do with vampires. Hehehe. But, still thinking though. Any idea to share? Gonna get that done, with the drawings and storyboad part by week 4. Awwwwwwww :(

Today is the second week of school. As usuals, monday blues. Boring lessons :/ Awwwwww :( Time to really starts studying liaos. Full of rubbish nonsenses jokes today. HEHEHE. Ohhhhhhhhhhh. Im thinking of quiting my job le. Tiringgggggg.

Hope DumbDumb is doing fine during these 4days of outfield training.. And soon it will be his overseas training to Brunei le.. Awwwwwwww :( :(